Today is the last day of Movember and how appropriate and awful that I suffered one of my darkest days in a long while. This is the thing with depression, you can be going along nicely then all of a sudden you have a night with little sleep for no reason and the following day you can’t, and I mean can’t, even get out of bed. You just want to hide from the world and wish everyone would leave you alone. You can from my lack of posts today that I just wasn’t there. I love blogging but I just couldn’t bring myself to even write one word. I’m not going to post a photo of the last day of my mo, I look and feel terrible.

And so on the last day of Movember I pretty much did nothing at all, just lay on my bed and stared. I hardly slept at all last night and I hardly slept today. Just a kind of catatonic, do nothing stasis which saps the energy from you like a black hole. The tightness in the chest, the tense muscles, the aching arm from the tense-ness, they must all be a figment of my imagination according to the insurance company. The shortness of breathe from a very fit person, the hyper-vigilance in large crowds, all imaginery. The utter exhaustion from a simple trip to a shopping mall is imagined too. That is just some of the things that I feel.

This ain’t fun and the c*nts from the left who keep posting comments about it really fuck me off. I’m telling you that no-one chooses this ife and it isn’t just a case of taking your harden the fuck up pills either. If it was I’d be fine.

There aren’t that many people out there tougher than me, either in their beliefs, standing up for what they believe in or even physically. I don’t give in and never shy from a fight but this fight of mine for the past 5 years has been the toughest fight of my life. That is why it irks me that I have to sue an insurance company, that I have to prove what my closest of friends already know, what my doctors and support people know.

But they have to know that I don’t give in and that I have barely started to fight back, but fight back I will. People tell me I am mad to share things like this but the one thing I have never done is hide anything, I have never shirked from sharing so that others may know. There are no skeletons.

Thank you to those few who support me through this, you know who you are, and thanks to those who have donated to Movember.

To sponsor my Mo, you can either:

•    Click this link http://nz.movember.com/mospace/17568/ and donate online using your credit card
•    Write a cheque payable to ‘Movember’, referencing my Registration Number 17568 and mailing it to: Movember, PO Box 12 708, Wellington 6144

Remember, all donations over $5 are tax deductible.

Thanks

Whaleoil

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Ok so you all know that I am growing a moustache this year for Movember.  I have decided to put down my razor for one month (November) and help raise awareness and funds for men’s health – specifically prostate cancer and depression in men.

What many people don’t appreciate is that close to 600 men die of prostate cancer each year in New Zealand and one in ten men will experience depression in their lifetime – many of whom don’t seek help. Facts like these as well as being a sufferer of major depressionhave convinced me I should get involved and I am hoping that you will support me.

To sponsor my Mo, you can either:

•    Click this link http://nz.movember.com/mospace/17568/ and donate online using your credit card
•    Write a cheque payable to ‘Movember’, referencing my Registration Number 17568 and mailing it to: Movember, PO Box 12 708, Wellington 6144

Remember, all donations over $5 are tax deductible.

To join my Movember team go to http://nz.movember.com/register/5840 and follow steps. Once registered you’ll be sent all the information you need to get donations and get growing as part of my Movember team.

Our Team which includes MP Aaron Gilmore is currently ranked #264 in the country. Let’s go for a top 50 finish. Come on loyal readers let’s have some Tory charity.

If you are interested in following the progress of my Mo, click here http://nz.movember.com/mospace/17568/. Also, http://nz.movember.com has heaps of useful information.

Thank you

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As you all know I am growing a moustache again for Movember.  I have decided to put down my razor for one month (November) and help raise awareness and funds for men’s health – specifically prostate cancer and depression in men.

What many people don’t appreciate is that close to 600 men die of prostate cancer each year in New Zealand and one in ten men will experience depression in their lifetime – many of whom don’t seek help. Facts like these have convinced me I should get involved and I am hoping that you will support me.

To join my Movember team go to http://nz.movember.com/register/5840 and follow steps. Once registered you’ll be sent all the information you need to get donations and get growing as part of my Movember team.

To sponsor my Mo, you can either:

•    Click this link http://nz.movember.com/mospace/17568/ and donate online using your credit card
•    Write a cheque payable to ‘Movember’, referencing my Registration Number 17568 and mailing it to: Movember, PO Box 12 708, Wellington 6144

Remember, all donations over $5 are tax deductible.

Movember is now in its fourth year and, to date, has achieved some pretty amazing results by working alongside The Cancer Society and the Mental Health Foundation of New Zealand. Check out further details at: http://nz.movemberfoundation.com/research-and-programs.

If you are interested in following the progress of my Mo, click here http://nz.movember.com/mospace/17568/. Also, http://nz.movember.com has heaps of useful information.

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The Standard recently asked why Cam Slater’s friends don’t control him or don’t assist him more with his depression.  As one of his friends I can tell you that some of us do support him through his depression.  I accept Cam for who he is, because that is who he is – depression included.  I don’t agree with him on everything – OK, so we can disagree on plenty.   However, I am his friend, I don’t control my friends.

I also laughed at the suggestion that Cam’s rantings on WOBH were of a mad man, and that there is a correlation between being of the Right AND depression.  Perhaps there is.  I too have had depressive episodes in my life but there is a problem with correlating depression with right wing belief.

I suffered my first depressive episode in my early teens.  Back then I was considered a very politically motivated, vocal supporter and demonstrator on the LEFT of the political spectrum.  Yet, I still got depression.  I didn’t seek help for it then and instead self-medicated.  Indeed I never sought help for depression until I had Post-Natal depression with my first child.  May be those of us on the Right just talk about it more?

We need to talk about depression – and we need to do it in a way that we don’t marginalize anyone.  The Standard’s attempt to do a warm and fuzzy post about depression and Cameron was littered with an undertone of “We know best” and “look at the poor nutcase”. Further comment then followed suggesting that because some right-wing bloggers have admitted to depression as well means there is something wrong with us and the way we think and express ourselves.

The sort of discourse undertaken by The Standard does everything to marginalize mental health issues further.  By undertaking an attack on Cam and his depression The Standard run the risk of marginialising all people with depression.   By all means attack Cameron’s views, but don’t stoop to using his depression.  And yes, as a friend I do tell Cameron when I think he is attacking another person in a way that is unacceptable to me.  It works both ways.

I encourage those with depression to talk about it.  By talking about your own issues, in the past or present, you might just encourage someone else to seek help.

Please support Cam and his Movember team.

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I am growing a moustache this year for Movember.  I have decided to put down my razor for one month (November) and help raise awareness and funds for men’s health – specifically prostate cancer and depression in men.

What many people don’t appreciate is that close to 600 men die of prostate cancer each year in New Zealand and one in ten men will experience depression in their lifetime – many of whom don’t seek help. Facts like these have convinced me I should get involved and I am hoping that you will support me. Whatever you do don’t pick Fxxxxxx Lxxx as your insurer, they don’t care about depression.

To join my Movember team go to http://nz.movember.com/register/5840 and follow steps. Once registered you’ll be sent all the information you need to get donations and get growing as part of my Movember team.

To sponsor my Mo, you can either:

•    Click this link http://nz.movember.com/mospace/17568/ and donate online using your credit card
•    Write a cheque payable to ‘Movember’, referencing my Registration Number 17568 and mailing it to: Movember, PO Box 12 708, Wellington 6144

Remember, all donations over $5 are tax deductible.

Movember is now in its fourth year and, to date, has achieved some pretty amazing results by working alongside The Cancer Society and the Mental Health Foundation of New Zealand. Check out further details at: http://nz.movemberfoundation.com/research-and-programs.

If you are interested in following the progress of my Mo, click here http://nz.movember.com/mospace/17568/. Also, http://nz.movember.com has heaps of useful information.

Thank you

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Movember update. We now have three team members. Aaron Gilmore MP  and Russel Thomson have joined the team for Movember. Welcome guys.

To join my Movember team go to http://nz.movember.com/register/5840 and follow steps. Once registered you’ll be sent all the information you need to get donations and get growing as part of my Movember team.

In case you hadn’t noticed am growing a moustache this year for Movember.  I have decided to put down my razor for one month (November) and help raise awareness and funds for men’s health – specifically prostate cancer and depression in men.

What many people don’t appreciate is that close to 600 men die of prostate cancer each year in New Zealand and one in ten men will experience depression in their lifetime – many of whom don’t seek help. Facts like these have convinced me I should get involved and I am hoping that you will support me.

To sponsor my Mo, you can either:

•    Click this link http://nz.movember.com/mospace/17568/ and donate online using your credit card
•    Write a cheque payable to ‘Movember’, referencing my Registration Number 17568 and mailing it to: Movember, PO Box 12 708, Wellington 6144

Remember, all donations over $5 are tax deductible.

Movember is now in its fourth year and, to date, has achieved some pretty amazing results by working alongside The Cancer Society and the Mental Health Foundation of New Zealand. Check out further details at: http://nz.movemberfoundation.com/research-and-programs.

If you are interested in following the progress of my Mo, click here http://nz.movember.com/mospace/17568/. Also, http://nz.movember.com has heaps of useful information.

Thank you and remember be very careful about which insurance company you select.

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